Kyaaa.... Here i am again, after 3 years of BPharm.
Suddenly felt like I wanna quit. Semester 5 and Semester 6 were my worst semesters in this programme. I don't think that it is because of the programme that made me this way. It is because of myself. I don't have much motivation to continue this path after realizing how will the working life would be and because I don't think I am worth to live a life anymore. I don't know how should I stand up again after falling for many times.

My love life still the same. I still contact him. Until one day he said, "You make me terrified each time you contact me."
My heart broked so hard after those words. But I still contact him again few weeks after that even though it is still painful.

I don't know what to think about anymore. I can't see my future. I am not ambitious as what I am before. I have lose all of my positive energy. I hate myself. I feel like it is the end of my life but I know I should keep on going. Now, I am letting everyone laughing at me.

The things that previously keep my head up during my hard time can no more console this weary heart.

I can't get off of my bed for this few days. Help Me! Please!